Lifeless 🥀

2023-05-20 23:15:36 Ya Allah , sesungguhnya kami memohon kepadaMu hal-hal yang dapat menentukan rahmatMu dan menguatkan pengampunanMu, memperoleh segala kebaikan, menyelamatkan daripada kejahatan, memperolehi syurga dan selamat daripada api neraka . Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau mendengar ucapanku, melihat tempat tinggalku, mengetahui lahir batinku, dan tidak ada satu urusan pun daripada urusanku yang tersembunyi daripada pengetahuanMu . aku adalah hamba yang sengsara dan amat memerlukan, hamba yang memohon bantuan, hamba yang penakut, yang meminta dikasihani, yang mengakui dan menyatakan semua dosa-dosanya kepadaMu . Ya Allah, aku mohon kepadaMu sebagaimana memintanya si miskin dan aku berdoa kepadaMu seperti doanya doa orang berdosa yang amat hina.
Aku mohon kepadaMu seperti orang penakut lagi buta, juga seperti berdoanya orang yang merendahkan jiwanya, merendahkan raga, wajah, serta hidungnya kepadaMu .

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2023-05-20 21:42:23 ألله‍م صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى أل سيدنا محمد

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2023-05-20 15:48:36 i wish i can mute my overthinking and trust issues .

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2023-05-20 13:17:41 yang berjuang malah di buang Open / Comment

2023-05-20 13:11:51 please understand that I've always been everyone's last choice , so if I get quiet and start to overthink , it's not you . I just been made to believe that I'll never be enough for anyone .

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2023-05-20 13:08:39 i’m at a place where i don’t wanna have to “fix” next partner. its draining . i’ve done it. i’ve tried to be that ride or die , but it’s such an energy imbalance . i’m tired . i want someone who is already emotionally available and emotionally expressive . that’s it .

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2023-05-20 12:25:02 tidak mudah bro nak cari kawan yang ada susah senang, nak cari kawan yang boleh tolong kita, nak cari kawan yang jenguk masa kau tengah sakit, tak semua orang mampu buat, berkawan itu mampu tapi menjadi sahabat yang baik itu maaf tidak mampu right ? bro carilah kawan yang mampu menerima diri kau, yang mampu menerima susah senang, yang mampu ada susah senang, zaman sekarang nak cari kawan itu ramai tapi nak cari betul betul sahabat itu susah sebab tak semua orang mampu, kadang tak guna jugak kalau ada kawan tapi jenis suka cakap belakang, takde function pun kalau kau ada jenis kawan macam tu, sebab bila dia susah je mintak tolong betul tak ? sebab itulah zaman sekarang dipanggil "select" bukan ikut trend tapi nak berkawan ni kene memilih nak tahu sebab apa ? kadang kadang bila kita tersalah pilih kawan benda ni boleh menghancurkan masa depan kita sendiri jadi carilah kawan yang betul ikhlas nak berkawan dengan kau tapi bukannya tumpang senang, bila susah bla, it is fair ? haha tak fair langsung, carilah kawan yang ikhlas bila berkawan, sebab bila berkawan dengan yang ikhlas ni insyaallah relationship friendship tu lebih baik berbanding kau berkawan dengan yang tumpang senang tapi bila kau susah dia hilang, bro hilang kawan biasa itu takde rasa apa apa tapi bila kau hilang kawan yang macam adik beradik kau sendiri sumpah separuh kebahagiaan kau itu hilang, jadi hargailah siapa yang ada susah senang dengan kau dan ingatlah siapa yang pernah mencaci kehidupan kau, bila kau dewasa berkawan ni makin lama makin hilang, yang ada pun satu dua je, dewasa mengajarkan diri kau bergantung kepada diri sendiri bukannya kepada kawan kau .

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2023-05-20 10:07:09 anything and everything for you . I want us to work out like we said we would . I want us to have the future we talked about , and it's just sad that we probably won't be able to do what we planned. It's impossible to move on when your what I think about every single day . you made me feel so special, and I could always go to you when I was feeling shy, and you wouldn't judge me . you made me feel safe, and I still love you like I did when I first met you . I really wish I could've been enough for you . I tried so hard for you, and I gave you my all . I believed in it . all the goals you told me about and the talks about our future . I believed it . you gave up ; you couldn't say how much I meant to you , but you were able to tell me ; your actions spoke so much louder than your words . I get that you're busy, but I wanted to be there with you . despite everything, I hope you accomplish everything in this life . It makes me sad knowing I won't be there to help or cheer you on , but I know in my heart and in my prayers l'll always hope you're getting one step closer to everything you wanted . you didn't want me in your life, and now I have to deal with a chapter in my life I wasn't ready to close . the silence is louder than my words, and you let me go with no response . my love meant nothing to you . I wish we could be strangers, but we can never be because you will always have a place in my heart and be someone who knows everything about me, someone who has all my love even if I have to do it from a distance .

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2023-05-20 09:04:46 ألله‍م صل على سيدنا محمد وعلى أل سيدنا محمد

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2023-05-20 05:19:20 I paid attention when I wasn't treated the same. I paid attention when I didn't get thank you. I paid attention when a room would go silent when I entered . I paid attention when folks believed lies about me and never asked me . I paid attention when they didn't show up for me .

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