When I’m saying trust, l don’t mean I can’t trust everyone. I | Happy hippie 🦁

When I’m saying trust, l don’t mean I can’t trust everyone. I don’t actually have secrets, I’m a very open-minded person. I can share all my feelings or thoughts with everyone, because I really don’t care what people will think about me. But photoshoot is a process where you need to trust a photographer with both: your body and mind. When I photograph people I need their trust to calm their minds, to guide their bodies to create a picture. It sounds like a meditation process, when you need to stop thinking and just be involved. And at this point I realised, I don’t really trust people because I can’t stop controlling the process. I see how they work, I see all mistakes and I don’t like it, we’re not equal and all what I want is just stop it and go away.

I have a few people who really feel me. I’m an honest person and I always say what i see or feel and I really need be understood. If I’m with someone I’m always naked, my garment in relationships is love and trust. And “my people” know it, we are equal, that’s why I’m here. I don’t want to hurt someone, no one actually can hurt someone. I mean, if someone’s words can hurt you, it’s actually means that it is true and you don’t want to accept this part of you, because if it’s not, you will always be able to explain and discuss everything to improve your interpersonal connection.

Whereas, another point is I really need to love the way of another photographer’s vision of art. The way that creator wants to introduce a model. What about his/her art? And if it is close to my vision of beauty I can relax and trust him/her. The fact is I had this experience only once and it makes me sad on the one hand, but on the other hand it means that my vision of art is not a usual thing. I am inspired by art of renaissance and sculpture. I love this way of art, because it shows people as divine creatures. Does that mean that I’m seeing myself as a divine creature? Absolutely yes.