2021-07-07 17:58:58
Röyksopp
Soooooooo let's drop in and create a safe place for me, I want to open up and speak up.
Some of you might know that I grew up somewhere up in the northern soviet Russia. That town was an amazing place to grow up in. It had everything necessary. It had the strength, the vibe and the power. We lived there because my step-father was in military service and my mom followed him.
The school I attended was amazing, I was lucky enough to go deep into languages from early ages, although other subjects were strong enough too. And do you know why that all was possible? Because the principle of the school was open to the opportunities and the exchanges of knowledge and experience.
The town Murmansk had a twin-town, a town in a different country, which it has something in common with - governmental agreement and support. In that particular case the twin-town was Tromsø, a town in Norway.
The idea was simple: students with the best grades and attitude have an opportunity to participate and to go study for a gap year after school or for a short visit to see how life is different in a school in a different place.
So what happened is: a friend of mine went to that trip I was supposed to go to and had an opportunity of attending Röyksopp live concert, as Tromsø is where this band comes from. And I envied her so badly that I started telling people I was in Tromsø's Röyksopp concert before they even were popular, I imagined it and felt it as if I was there.
But then at some point the fact that I had never been to Tromsø myself and I am lying to everyone started destroying me from inside.
Do you want to know the reason why I hadn't been there? Because I did not have one necessary paper agreement from my blood-father in Kaliningrad. He did not give me that paper and I couldn't not go neither for a short term trip, nor to a gap year. I hated him so badly for the fact that he hurt me so much,
that I was hurting myself even more every time I was telling my lie. Then at some point when I stopped telling lies in my life.... it made me think.... maybe this story is no longer so important as it was before? Maybe I should forgive and forget and accept myself in those shameful lies I told before, but it is ok, what is important is what I am gonna do from now on. As they say: all the past experience we are holding on to is stuck in our body and stops us from experiencing the depth.
I choose to tell the truth. I choose to express fully and live abundantly. There is this concept in Buddhism:
'Sammā-vācā - right speech, purity of vocal action. To understand what is purity of speech, one must know what is impurity of speech, Speaking lies to deceive other, speaking harsh words that hurt others, backbiting and slanderous talk, babbling and purposeless chatter are all impurities of vocal action. When one obtains from these, what remains is right speech.'
Thank you for holding space.
How often do you tell lies?
Do you know the band Röysopp?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Röyksopp
https://open.spotify.com/artist/5nPOO9iTcrs9k6yFffPxjH?si=3fAvnhwSTEe_TbW27luvvg
What do you know about the place Tromsø, Norway?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tromsø
What do you know about the place Murmansk, Russia?
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Murmansk
Is there anything that you would like to share with us today?
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