There is nothing comfortable about war. There is nothing comfo | Mechanics of Existence

There is nothing comfortable about war. There is nothing comfortable about being human in a war. This situation is not about me. This is a universal shadow showing up to be seen. The stuff is not to be kept hush-hush. And this is not time for us to play holy. Whatever just happened triggered something from within me that I was not aware of. A tyrant has been awakened. At first I was hurt and then something very dark started coming up to the surface, desire to crush these liars like bugs, memories are coming up from within the cells, I used to have this authority, authority to execute. I am fully aware that this is not of Christ but I never claimed to be an embodiment of Christ. We have stuff to work through and these triggers bring it all up to the surface. Realistically either I clear this right now or polarize into a fallen angelic. I’ve always been honest with you all. This is how high-level people get taken over, we get pushed into such deep disappointment that instead of protecting we want to destroy. I am sitting with this. And this is a deep initiation not just for me but collectively because this is the arrival of the masculine in a very expanded way. Right now my masculine is a tyrant. I am not hiding it. And I feel my masculine in an embodiment of a man being a very powerful man with a lot of power. There is a lot I have to sit with. This is about the masculine coming online and actually entering the body, and it’s either going to be a benevolent protector or a tyrant.

I will never hide anything. I do not owe anyone lies. Right now I am drawn to power more than I am to love. And this is my initiation. This is what I am living through. The reason why this affected me so much is because this is an echo of a past timeline. This is not the first time I am living through this. Last time I hunted down the ones that slandered me and there was a blood shed. So this is what is coming up right now. Not just for me. Welcome to the real process.