I am sorry Two years in the making Never thought i would lose | Noah Wrote These

I am sorry
Two years in the making
Never thought i would lose faith
Now is see that my creation
Is a big messed up mistake
I wrote every chance that i got
I kept on reloading my words till i made the right shot
I gave it my less and i got alot
Maybe i am part of it maybe i am not
I stopped and erased this more than twice
its like the sun never melting an ice
its like thousands of flashlights never making the dark bright
Its like having a blanket trying to cover the moonlight
Its like hoping for a wing while jumping from a big height
Its like giving away your soul for your sight
Sticking with the outside ignoring the inside
I sold my demons and bought a pen and paper
After i write i get them all back together
And they make sure that i remember
That i will stay like this forever
Telling me that when i am like this i am better
If they knew that i wrote this they won't be proud of me
I just wanna write like i used to if that's a mistake then i am sorry.
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