Sometimes I suppose I'm happy. When I'm with my friends, throw | Serenity

Sometimes I suppose I'm happy. When I'm with my friends, throwing my head back and covering my mouth as I shake with laughter at a joke someone just made. but then the day turns tonight and carefree grin turns into an unexplainable sadness. I lay in bed thinking about all the things I wish I could say, all the things I'm afraid to admit even with only pen, paper, and and mind. it's nights like this that I realize I'm many things. I'm happy and sad, outgoing and shy, rambunctious and quiet. but most of all I am empty.