I don't know what to say, but the life I live is like hell. In | POV : you are sick of yourself.

I don't know what to say, but the life I live is like hell. In other words, it was as if a curse had been placed on me that was impossible to get out of, which had transformed me from the strongest human being into a completely destroyed person from the inside, and those signs that appear on my features without speaking what's wrong with me, and everything around me became dull. Even concealment exhausted me and made me a person unable to explain his feelings and what he suffers from, and who has no solution but only solution is crying and screaming in order to express that damned pain and get rid of it or express it through drawing those feelings and everything that happens to him because of that curse that is like hell and in In the end, I ask everyone I know, whether my family and friends, to forgive me that I was pretending that Iam just fine and everything is gonna be alright , and I ask God to forgive me if I ever disobeyed Him.