2022-02-04 10:19:29
Many followers of the channel are asking about my current whereabouts, so I might as well make a post about it.
In the early summer of 2017, I dropped out from the university after doing only a year long non-degree course, with the sole purpose of continuing my education in the US. According to my perfectly drafted plans, I should be headed to the US in the summer of 2018. That didn’t happen because, well, life got in the way. Things happened, and I came back to Tashkent to take teaching seriously, but still remaining hopeful of going to the US. Between my return to Tashkent in 2018 and last year, I didn’t apply to any college although I told people I did so. I don’t know why but every time
application season would begin I would slacken off. However, during the same period, I have taught hundreds of people and learnt from them as much as I taught. The people who were in my classroom were some of the best people I got to me. My friend from Andijan once told me that I was very fortunate to be surrounded by good people. He wondered how I was able to surround myself with all of these good people. I honestly don’t know why and how. I guess that is because of my mom’s prayers. Yeah during this time I met a lot of good people. I just want to thank every one of them for being a part of my journey.
I should have had my visa interview in the summer of 2021 but that didn’t happen because of delta variant outbreak. I decided I would wait and go for the spring semester but then the news of omicron variant hit the headlines, and for a moment I thought maybe I should finally give up on the dream of going to the US. Life had something else in store for me as the omicron variant actually proved to be a beacon of hope, probably the beginning of the end of this horrible nightmare we all find ourselves in. I was finally able to schedule my interview in Tashkent and got my visa approved.
When I told the news to friends and family, can you guess one phrase they all used?
“Finally”. “At last” or something to that effect.
Now I am finally in the US, four years later than I planned. But it worked out in the end, like many of my friends and family members pointed out. Many asked why I didn’t give up on this whole going to the US thing. Well, I don’t know I once heard that when we are on our deathbed, we regret more about things we didn’t do rather than things we did do. I believe there is some truth to it. That was one of the reasons I kept working on this dream of coming to the US although it was not the biggest one. Honestly, even if I didn’t get to come here, I wouldn’t make something big out of it. I would just let it go and move on with my life. A close friend of mine quoted a very good metaphor from Vsauce when I last saw him. And that quote really resonated with me. I will finish this post with the words of Michael, aka Vsauce hoping you also won’t stop working on your goals and not be afraid of making mistakes (regrets)
Stuff in your past is a carving on the bark of sapling. Over time, the scar, the carving won’t go away. Because of the way trees grow it won’t go up or down much either, it’ll just stay right where it began. It might even get darker. But it won’t get bigger. You, however, can. You can keep growing, doing more things, more branches, being more things. The wound get smaller, but you can make it a smaller part of who you are. Maybe regrets are like that.
P.S I wrote this post on my way to another city, so excuse the typos and grammar errors.
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