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2021-07-14 17:53:03 JEREMIEY635 - Make Sense


“Yesterday someone asked me what depression feels like. I said ‘like a slower way of being dead’ and I know it doesn’t make any sense but that’s just the way it is. laying in bed, unable to move even though there is nothing physically wrong with you doesn’t make much sense either.

A family member once asked me why I don't get out of my room much. I said ‘i’m sick’ and they said ‘being sad isn’t the same as being sick’ and, yeah, they’re right. being sad ISN’T the same as being sick. i can’t call in sad to work, or to school, or to anywhere else for that matter without being accused of throwing a self-pity party to which the only attendees are me and my sadness which is constantly being invalidated by those who don’t understand it, including me, because I don’t understand my sadness either. it’s difficult to admit this but the ugly truth is i have been sad for so long that I no longer remember what it’s like not be. kind of like when you have a cold and can’t breathe through your nose but instead of not being able to breathe through your nose, you can’t breathe AT ALL and all you can do is wait to suffocate while the people around you ask you what’s wrong but you can’t tell them because it wouldn’t make any sense. It never makes any sense.” Open / Comment

2021-07-11 21:01:04 "That's where I want to spend the rest of my life, a warm place with no memory" Open / Comment

2021-07-11 20:32:28 JEREMIEY635- Everything I am

The difference between something you want and something you love
Can be illustrated by how you treat a flower.
When you want something
You take it for yourself
And that flower then exists as an extension of you, Its beauty measured by how beautiful you’ll allow it to be. We often feel the need to have possession over the things we love , But when you love something, You discover an appreciation for everything it is
Knowing something so beautiful, so vast, Could never belong only to you, Seeing it’s light and knowing it would be selfish to hold it hostage from the world.
I pity those who have not gotten the chance to experience you
And at the beginning of this love, I only wanted you for myself. I am now learning to love you. I am learning to adore you from three steps back
Wanting only to experience this life with you, I will not interrupt the path you have forged for yourself.I will stand beside you, championing your growth
I will not demand that you change for me. I only ask that you change for the better.
I want to see you grow
As I stand alongside you As humans we are so complex, There is immense depth to minds and souls. How selfish would it be for me to think I could be everything for you.
So Instead, I’ll be everything I am letting you be everything you are and going forward, we’ll face everything together Open / Comment

2021-07-11 20:30:36 "When anything is blocking my head or there's worry in my life, I just go sit on Mars or something and look back here at Earth, All you can see is this tiny Speck. You don't see the fear, You dont see the pain, You don't see thought. It's just one solid speck, Then nothing really matters. It just doesn't"
- Heath Ledger Open / Comment

2021-07-10 20:53:53 Your girlfriend deserves nothing but the best, so give her my number Open / Comment

2021-07-09 09:09:48 If the only thing keeping a person decent is the expectation of divine reward then, brother, that person is a piece of shit. Open / Comment

2021-07-07 17:47:26 Close your eyes and imagine the best version of you possible. That’s who you really are, let go of any part of you that doesn’t believe it. Open / Comment

2021-07-02 20:49:58 I want grownups to hear what I have to say. I want adults who can't raise kids not to have any. I'm sick of those who can't take care of their kids. What will I take form this? All the insults, all the beatings, all the kickings? The chain, the hose or the belt? The nicest word I hear is, "Fuck off, you son of a bitch!" "Piss off you fucker!" Life is a pile of shit. Filthier than the shoes on my feet. I live in hell here. I burn like rotting meat. I was expecting to be a good man, respected and loved. But God doesn't want that for us. He'd rather we be washrags for others. He wants us to be floor mats, to be stepped on. That kid in your belly will be just like me.

- Zain, Capharnaüm 2018 Open / Comment

2021-07-01 20:55:42 JEREMIEY635 - LEAVE

If you decide to leave someone
Know that it won’t be easy
Because losing someone isn’t instant
It happens every morning you wake up thinking of them
And every night you fall asleep missing their warmth
You will lose them over and over again
Until you are done with it
So admit to this
Knowing it’s okay to leave someone you love
Nostalgia is a liar in how it montages our best memories while omitting our truths
And the truth is
Not every experience is meant to last forever
No one is entitled to any part of you for any more time than you comfortable sharing yourself
So be selfish
You are a universe
Inside of a vessel
And not everyone is worthy of the experience that is you
You are not obligated to keep anyone in your life
So learn to experience fully, and know when to let go.

And if you decide to stay
Let it be a mutual love that keeps you here
Do not sacrifice your own peace for the happiness of another
In fear of hurting them
They will hurt, and they will heal
Just as you will hurt.
You will find yourself lost in a world without them
But you will heal
And in time
You will realize you are living without the one you thought you couldn’t live without Open / Comment

2021-06-29 17:11:12 JEREMIEY635- To my next girlfriend

Hi, I'm Jeremiey
I think you're one of the most beautiful girls I've ever talked to
I reiterate things when I mean them

I spend most of my day in my head over-analyzing almost everything
I know I'm weird I'm learning to love that about myself
I got a big ass Heart

I deal with depression
Pretty heavy sometimes that I have really bad anxiety
But at the same time I'm a people person
I'm trying to understand how I'm such a contradiction
But maybe you'll learn to love this in the same way I'm learning to love myself

And on the topic of love
If we're going to be together
I want you to understand that this relationship
Isn't going to start in emotions
I'd like it to start as a decision
I need you to decide to love me
In the same way that someone decides to go to work everyday
I need you to understand that change is going to happen
We are going to change as people
This relationship may not end in marriage it may not end at all
But if it ends it'll end in change

We're not going to leave this the same people that we came in
I need you to be open to this change
In the same way that I need to be open to this change
I need you to be understanding because some days
I don't know myself, so I know I'll be hard to recognize Open / Comment