waking up every time predicting my day it'll be the same ther | Nocturnal Thoughts

waking up every time predicting my day
it'll be the same there's no doubt I bet
is it me or is it fate
that's leave me with all this life that I hate
all I want is to change
to wake up feeling safe
to feel like there more for me
than to live life and to be dead
I hope to never lose hope
to cut my self from the feeling
that tied me up with a rope
to not feel what I feel
to be above and be on top
to have the keys to my soul
to know when to start and when to stop
all I want is to change
before I lose my time before I lose my age
before it all over and be left in a grave
u can only use time it's not something u can put down in your safe
I can feel my deeds every walk ever step
i can't seem to change them I always knew when it's too late
I can't find my self doing anything I said
I make myself feel good to never leave my bed
it's time to let that go and find myself instead
cause all I want is to change
I know I can be a person that I always expect
I didn't like the mirror the last time I saw it reflect
I know i can find me somewhere in life and give my self some respect
nowadays laziness is the only thing that I can deeply relate
I know I not only living with the food that I ate
it took me too long to understand my state
I feel like it's time to know
that it was me it not fate
I can't work hard to see my self to be great
they say good things take time for those who wait
i waited long enough for my mind to rearrange
time for me to shine and take my stage
cause all I want right know is for me to see me change!
latenight thought
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