Nocturnal Thoughts

2021-09-01 19:04:42 "I don’t think existence wants you to be serious. I have not seen a serious tree. I have not seen a serious bird. I have not seen a serious sunrise. I have not seen a serious starry night. It seems they are all laughing in their own ways, dancing in their own ways. We may not understand it, but there is a subtle feeling that the whole existence is a celebration." Open / Comment

2021-08-02 07:20:04 "Why did you leave" he asks her. "You had a way of living in the past perfect," She said with a sad smile tugging on the corner of her lips, "I couldn't fight with your memories. I couldn't win. So i had to join."

@heartlesswoes Open / Comment

2021-07-29 20:07:46 “See, Sarah Lynn? We're not doomed. In the grand scheme of things, we're just tiny specks that will one day be forgotten. So it doesn't matter what we did in the past, or how we'll be remembered. The only thing that matters is right now. This moment. This one spectacular moment we are sharing together. Right, Sarah Lynn? Sarah Lynn? Sarah Lynn?” Open / Comment

2021-07-20 22:29:43 "isn't it so beautiful how free and effortless it seems when it moves?" She asked looking at the view of the ocean from where she stand taking her time admiring it like it was her first time seeing the ocean flow.
" it is beautiful" i replied looking at her eyes falling deep in her mind cause the way she thinks makes me feel like I'm high not like the drugs I took
more like the plane I never fly and then she looked back at me and said "it's like life right?, the ocean?
how it's beautiful and toxic at the same time. how calm it can be in the light then get messy and loud when it's not so bright and you think you figured it out before you fall deep inside. seeing the light fade away slowly and the sun no longer shine.
before the air you take for granted is hidden for you to find.
thinking it was better to fight the waves then to dive.
realizing the only thing that never changes was the fact that everything change though time.
before you feel the pressure and the tension before you lost your sight.
before hope is no longer an option cause u drowning fast as if you jump from a cliff that was so high
thinking it is the end this is the time to go down like everyone else there is no point for you to fight
just remembering how easy it was when u were in the other side
seeking to find the beauty of it while being in the dark
cause after all u got to survive. even when you can't.
just like life right?"
she asked and stare back at the ocean like it was her first time.
as I was staring at her falling deep in her mind and find my ocean in her beautiful eye.

late night thoughts
#NZ# Open / Comment

2021-07-20 18:56:04 Everyone is obsessed with physical appearances, but remember: TRUE beauty lies in your boundless, untamed fury at the absurdity of existence. Open / Comment

2021-07-18 19:11:40 July 19,

From a marvel book

" I would like you to think in a way you would think of yourselves if you intended to go see a doctor because there is something that is not all right, there is a pain here, There is something that is not a fullness of life. There is weaknesses, There is tiredness , there is pain, there is depression, there is misery, there is fear so many other things. How attentively we think of ourselves when we are physically ill, so as to describe it to the physician, for him to be able to understand and advice us how to come to health. And this process is a creative one because it is a way of breaking barriers, of emerging into freedom, of renouncing passivity in order to become active, creative to turn from death or illness into health and life."
Met. Anthony Bloom. Open / Comment

2021-07-01 07:12:05 waking up every time predicting my day
it'll be the same there's no doubt I bet
is it me or is it fate
that's leave me with all this life that I hate
all I want is to change
to wake up feeling safe
to feel like there more for me
than to live life and to be dead
I hope to never lose hope
to cut my self from the feeling
that tied me up with a rope
to not feel what I feel
to be above and be on top
to have the keys to my soul
to know when to start and when to stop
all I want is to change
before I lose my time before I lose my age
before it all over and be left in a grave
u can only use time it's not something u can put down in your safe
I can feel my deeds every walk ever step
i can't seem to change them I always knew when it's too late
I can't find my self doing anything I said
I make myself feel good to never leave my bed
it's time to let that go and find myself instead
cause all I want is to change
I know I can be a person that I always expect
I didn't like the mirror the last time I saw it reflect
I know i can find me somewhere in life and give my self some respect
nowadays laziness is the only thing that I can deeply relate
I know I not only living with the food that I ate
it took me too long to understand my state
I feel like it's time to know
that it was me it not fate
I can't work hard to see my self to be great
they say good things take time for those who wait
i waited long enough for my mind to rearrange
time for me to shine and take my stage
cause all I want right know is for me to see me change!
latenight thought
#NZ# Open / Comment

2021-06-27 16:13:46 if loving you
means I lose myself
then I am gone
to the depths
of nothingness
until nothing
becomes us

- Vincent Van gone Open / Comment

2021-06-26 22:15:25 she: I know it's been awhile but I have missed you!! I know the distance between us is not getting closer it seems, I know the problems we have is getting larger it seems, I know the time we have spent together is shorter it seems... But I miss you!! you have left a deeper valley that no one can fill. It feels like this valley of a heart have a mountain over it's shoulder it seems, a mountain that me nor you can climb on to....But I miss you!! it's so simple to see that our life is too complicated. if only our love was eternal as our feelings be, but it's not!! our love will cease to exist in a second but leaves with the feelings that will never end, never burn out....


He: Your breath still lingers through my ears. Its the only sound i want to wake to. My heart sinks when i think of the time we spent together like we were the only people in the world because when i was with you i forgot the world and all the problem that comes with it. i don't have to pretend i don't have to hide all i needed to be was me and there wasn't anything simpler than that.
Now that you're gone my life is stuck on a loop. I spend my days playing our conversations on repeat. If you ask me what's difficult darling, i will tell you its living a life with a ghost of you haunting me. I miss the late night talks we do...i even miss the small arguments we have now and then.


she: The feelings you are feeling right now I feel them too and it hurts too , we are meant to last as the stars do, shine bright for our forever and explodes into the star dusts we are and the time has come!!! and we shall embrace the time as it is even though it hurts, lets burst through time and see our self in the next life time , I don't regret anything but I am hoping for not to hope, cause hoping to see you hurts , I like to burst the bubble that I am in ,wake my self up from your dream that feels like a fantasy, Magical but also tragic. I have to learn how live on someone's dream again cause I can't live in my dreams, mine is filled with the thought of you , the thoughts I can't hide from.. Open / Comment

2021-06-25 21:24:05 I am staring at a her but what I am looking at is a mirror
inside there is a reflection of me confined in her frame
with every second that passes, the image gets much clearer
When am sad she is like the sky that's blue, when it's dawn she shine like the brightest moon.
If I show her love, I can see it shining, grinning back at me
If I show her hate,that's what I would get
"The love you take equals the love you make"
That's what I hear in the back of my head
She is a reflection that's an illusion
She reads me with her intuition
I keep staring at her
I can see heaven in one of her eyes and hell in the other
A blessing and a curse of in my favourite sin
there no place I would rather be
Standing Infront of the refelection I see Open / Comment