Your soul that carries both him and you, would it survive? Bec | Scribbles

Your soul that carries both him and you, would it survive?
Because at first you lived.
And so did he.
Sometimes it is hard to recall but you lived while he did.
You existed at the same timeline,
until you didn't.
You were when he was
and when he wasn't.
You continued to exist.
A broken version of you lived.
And I swear a much more amount of time has been spent mourning his absence,
than the actual amount of time you spent in his presence.
Somehow though it all made sense.
You carried all of it,
all the brokenness;
You carried all of it,
all the bitterness.
And as time goes by his absence started to take more influence.

He made you.
And you lived when he didn't.
(Survivor's guilt?) Because you lived.
You are who you are now, because he doesn't exist.

But do you still wish for the life that was,
with every shooting stars you see when you look up?
Because he isn't, is why you are now,
and I find myself wondering if you would give that up.

-A coffin for two (II)


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