【Dear Idiot Reader #2】 I usually write two lies and one tru | Scribbles

【Dear Idiot Reader #2】

I usually write two lies and one truth but I have been on writer's block for so long, I have decided to take a different route and stick with the truth this time.
(No, telling one truth doesn't make an honest person out of a perpetual liar.)

I wouldn't like to introduce myself, but here are some random facts that absolutely have no use to you.

Writer's note: Old habits die hard so maybe not everything written down here is true.

For ten consecutive years, since I have started using pen I have written in black.
But last year on the eleventh, I have switched to Blue.

The real reason: I started to like my handwriting in blue.
The supporting reason: one of my best friends likes it too.
The poetic reason: I happen to call this best friend Something Blue.
The reason I am discovering as I am writing this now: I changed the color of my pen around the time we were in a lockdown and changing my pen was the only thing I could do.

Hi.
It's probably nice to meet you.
I have gotten my heart broken two times and a third one is probably soon due.
(No it wasn't over some teenage love and I'm not a teenager.
You know what, forgive me. This particular information isn't really true.
Not the fact I'm not a teenager. That one absolutely is.)
(Oh, also. Either I lied and came clean
or I lied about lying to you.)

I have stopped reading other people's poems except one person's because I'm afraid I'd start to sound like them and lose my bit of originality.
I have watched some writer's interview recently, and when she said she once hasn't written in two/three years I have gotten scared my writer's block might end up lasting for eternity.
And though I don't demand attention from the world, I think I am scared of mediocrity.

I currently have three dreams and all of them scare me.
I have a friend that would tell me to take a leap because 'scare' only means I'm dreaming big but I'm not sure I have a big heart that is brave enough to follow them.

I have been blessed enough to see life with pink glasses but I know what it looks with a black and white too.
I talk loud.
I jump around.
And I learned confidence by faking my way through.

Hello.
Now is probably the cue to introduce my name to you.
Obviously, I'm not going to.
In fact, I think this has been too much information
so I'd like to stop writing this entry too.

Remember. Telling one truth when you have been lying through all your pages
doesn't make an honest person out of you.
So no. This was not a breakthrough.
I won't lie and say I will make a habit out of this too.
But it has been a while, so to end with one final truth
it has been a real pleasure talking to you.


#RANDOM_THOUGHTS