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2021-10-09 04:26:26 Sobriety [part 2]
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Read the beginning in the previous post.
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So I was hiding behind the wine glasses. They were no longer filled with such high quality liquid (which is in fact not less poisonous), but the quantity gave me opportunity to calm the constant chatter in my mind for a bit at least.
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I started being so hungover. I remember time when I could not get up from my bed in the morning, as I had such a terrible headache and my hands were shaking.
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UHHHHH, can you imagine, I was a single mom also at that time, just like now, but my child was much younger and needed so much more attention.
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It is also about the balance between your work and rest you give to your body. When I worked as a PA I was almost like a robot glued to my phone or laptop for 24/7 with no days off for 6 years, with 2 weeks of vacation twice a year. Can you imagine how burned out I got? Before I was thirty, I felt it is an amazing quality to be a super-productive achiever. Then when I started creating my business, I though that wine would give me that energy to keep working at night for me to move forward as fast as I could... It was such an illusion that drinking is a must in the culture I come from.
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But the wake up moments had to come sooner or later.
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Back in 2019 I returned to Russia after many years of living abroad just to find out how poisonous food and water is there. You can buy everything in the shops, the shelves are loaded with a variety of chemicalized stuff. Chicken, avocado at any season, mangoes, oranges, all those are imported and brought from all over. I immediately stopped eating meat and started thinking about ways of getting better food, but at the same time I realized that when you don't eat meat you get wasted from alcohol much faster.
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So I didn't wait too long to stop all of that at once. I was severely damaged psychologically, trapped in the place I no longer belonged to. The only way out that I saw at the time was to go in.
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And I did that. I started waking up at 6 am and doing my practice before I was teaching at 8 am. Together with it I changed diet completely and stopped drinking.
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To be continued. #sobriety
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2021-10-08 02:24:49 Sobriety [part 1]

It's been more than two years since I made a conscious decision not to drink alcohol. Do not take me wrong, I am not sick and stopped doing that because I could no longer tolerate it, no, this is not the case. I have made a decision that it is not for me. And yes, I tried a few times over this time, but the outcome was quite severe.

I want to speak about it for a bit. Those who've been with me for a while can probably remember that time, when I shared about my first New Year celebration sober, it was very different, especially because I was in Russia and was surrounded by friends and family with a totally different attitude.

But let me go back to the time I worked as a PA (personal assistant). At that time I lived in Moscow and was on business trips around the globe every other month, had almost unlimited access to the resources (money and availability) and could afford almost any bottle of wine in the store (except for the collected wines, but those were not for daily usage anyway). I knew that my favorite wines were red Bordeaux from that region in France (preferably imported or bought there) or white Pinot Grigio from Napa Valley, California.

I was drinking every single day the high quality poison to hide behind it from the sorrow my soul felt.

No dinner with friends, family gathering or even a picnic could be imagined without drinking. It felt like it was such an important part of life. I am not even talking about the amount of money wasted on this habit.

At that time I had no idea what meditation was. Probably I didn't need that deep concentration and clarity I value so much these days either.

I was also not a vegetarian at that time.

When I got sexually abused at my work and my values and world got shaken I started drinking even more. I quit my high-ticket job, started traveling and drinking a lot. At that time I was also passing through a divorce, my husband at the time didn't know I got abused, but as he couldn't protect me, I lost trust and satisfaction in my family life. So I was hiding behind the wine glasses.

I will continue in the next post. Tell me your attitude to alcohol in the comments.
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2021-10-04 18:49:56 Absolute Love

31 May 2021

My post-it note has been reminding me about absolute love journaling and now is the time to share these thoughts.

What I feel to all my previous partners, clients, students, close friends and everyone I more or less have feelings for or come in contact with is nothing but love, compassion and empathy. I do not choose how much to give, I just give whatever is resonant for the moment.

How can you plan what kind of story you will have with a person when you just meet him or her? The dynamics is always different, but choosing with your heart open what is right for the moment, learning how to speak your truth no matter what in a loving and compassionate way, finding that beauty inside of yourself and spreading it around, that is what matters to me.

We all have love inside of us, we are born from love, love is our superpower. When you do something with love in your heart you automatically open up for the experience. And then these energy shifts you experience are worth the ride.

Ups and downs through love, self-expression and compassion.

DM for 1:1 or group coaching and mentorship to help you with self-expression, emotional intelligence, energy shifts and deeper connections in your life.

Speak your truth, live abundantly.

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2021-09-30 03:19:50 BE School CHANNEL (adults) pinned «Spaciousness Sometimes it might feel that nothing is happening. I've been there, it feels like being stuck, like something needs to be done urgently, now, as soon as possible to start the merry-go-round rolling again. But are you sure it is actually necessary?…» Open / Comment

2021-09-29 05:57:56 Spaciousness

Sometimes it might feel that nothing is happening. I've been there, it feels like being stuck, like something needs to be done urgently, now, as soon as possible to start the merry-go-round rolling again.

But are you sure it is actually necessary? Are you sure you need that rollercoaster you are used to, to go to the next level? Chances are it's not what you truly desire, as in that case you would not be reading this post.

Sometimes it is necessary to slow down and to be still to actually tap into that unknown you were dreaming of. The answers are often between the thoughts, in that space of stillness, in that space of nothingness, in that space of connection to the source.

Are you connected? Do you listen to your intuition well enough? Do you trust your heart or listen to your logic only?

As long as you open yourself to the unknown new opportunities will start knocking on your door, as long as you create a safe space for self-expression, you can allow yourself to be seen.

There is no need to shout about your talents or to chase those clients. It is much more valuable when you make yourself available and allow the right people and circumstances to be attracted to your aura.

And when I say "make yourself available" I mean speak your truth, do not pretend to be someone you are not. Right people will be brought to your aura energetically whenever the moment is right. Dream big, let your voice be heard. Open / Comment