DeepThoughts

2021-08-19 09:26:13 Have you ever gotten so angry that you cry?
Because you bottle that shit up till you burst, but you aren’t someone that takes it out on other people… You aren’t someone that hurts people while you’re hurting.

Have you ever gotten so angry that you have a complete mental breakdown? Because sometime things are too much, and we can’t always take it.
We can’t always say the things we want to say, so we bottle it up and hope it goes away. Open / Comment

2021-08-17 17:01:50 Can you be friend with your ex?

I would say no in the first place. Not after you just breakup, and immediately become "friend". You need some time to heal. You need to neutralize your feelings. Being friends with your ex immediately after breakup is just a form of manipulation.

How can you be friend with someone you once shared the same feelings and strong love affair? It won't work that way. Trust me, you will still hold on to them. You're not letting them go, you just use the "friendship" as an excuse.

Ex "friendship" will complicate your life. Your unresolved romantic desire will give negative outcomes. Honestly it's hard to set up a boundary. You'll just experience new kind of pain.
A pain of not being able to be with someone you love, but having them around at the same time.

You can't lie to your heart, everytime you stay in touch with your ex, all sorts of thoughts and memories will bring back up, somehow put you into an emotional state that allowing yourself to feel a vague connection, experiencing a new level of pain.

Do you think you can handle a friendship which separated from your previous relationship?
This kind of friendship could be more toxic than the toxic relationship itself.

You need to heal in the first place. Take a break. Clear your mind, accept that your relationship is over. Acceptance is a key. Cut off your connection with your ex, from every damn way.
Until, the pain can no longer tear you up. Until it doesn't hurt anymore.

Sometimes, to love is to let go. And it is healthier to let the "friendship" go as well. It hurts, but it will be okay.

You will be okay. Open / Comment

2021-08-16 08:06:42 Moving on

At the beginning, it will hurt. It will consume you. It will knock you down, tear you apart. The memories and pains follow you everywhere.
You won't be able to stop thinking, what went wrong, why is this happening, why is this pain unstoppable.

You wake up with puffy eyes and swollen nose, because last night you cried yourself to sleep. Your heart just won't stop aching, till the pain can be felt physically. It's just so unbearable, indescribable, at some point you just wish to stop your live.

I've been there before. I thought I could never make it. I almost gave up. I guess I have died so many times.

That's how love killed me once upon a time.

However after a while, the hurt, hurts less. As time goes by, I kinda feel numb, maybe I'm getting used to it. I started to see reason, and understand, not all the things will work out they way we want them to be. Maybe it's just a phase of acceptance. But that's the sad truth.

Heartbreak is inevitable. Especially from someone you love. The hardest part isn't goodbye, but to live without them. But you know what, it seems impossible in the beginning, until your mind got clearer. Until your heart finds its peace. That is where you realize,

A chapter of your life is done. And you got to move on to your next chapter. But this time, you are stronger, wiser, and aware. Aware of how love can be so fragile and pure, yet has the power to break, shatter and destroy you.

Moving on is not something to work on. You don't wake up in the morning thinking what can you do today to move on. As much as you think to yourself how to make it work, you won't be able to.
Because it is actually, a learning process. A painful, yet meaningful.

You learn that you can't have expectations. You can't expect someone to love and want you as much as you do. No matter how powerful your love is toward them, if they decides to leave you they will.
But honestly you can't really blame them.

I've read this a lot.

"If you really love that person, you will want them to be happy. Even if their happiness is meant to be without you. You will respect that and let them go. Because you want them to be happy"

A forced love, is not love. It is possession.

Today, my heart no longer hurt over that person. No hate, no grudges. I'm thankful instead, for this meaningful lesson of life. It was hard, I swear. But it's over.

And this is just, a long time ago. A story that I've deeply buried. And it didn't bothers anymore.

Let it go.
Let it hurt.
Let it teach you.
Let it build you.
The pain won't go, but you'll be stronger. Wiser.
Wise enough, as who you allow yourself to love.

And yes,
I let myself to fall in love again. Open / Comment

2021-08-14 19:56:59 They said times will heal it, but i guess it is not times that heals. It is just the memories, will fade through times. Fade and forget Open / Comment