The Sun & Her Flowers

2021-05-05 14:45:05 When we think of people that made it, we assume that they were great from the start. As if they learned everything faster than everyone else, as if their achievements predicted their future. That could be true in some cases but there's absolutely no use to have skills and talents if you don't go through the fight of showing it to the world somehow. Everyone has atleast one thing they're extremely good at, maybe we have discovered some, maybe we haven't. But why do you think only a selected few of us are somewhere that can be called success? (I believe success is subjective, by the way. My idea of it and yours could be miles apart.) It's a rough road to take. You have to be someone's assistant, someone's junior, someone's amateur at some point. Even if your idea is big and can change the world, you'll have to start small. Just because you don't wake up one day and find yourself at the very top of the ladder doesn't mean you won't get there. Your hustles matter. They make a difference. They're pushing you towards something. They are the stepping stones to your dream even if they feel like irrelevant wastes of time at the moment. Keep pushing, don't get your head out of the game just because it takes longer than expected.

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2021-05-02 06:55:03 And please, remember to wear a mask and stay safe throughout the day. Be kind to people, check on that friend you haven't talked to in a while, forgive those that did you wrong. At some point we changed the meaning of holidays into fancy food and alcohol but the whole concept remains to be kindness and compassion.

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2021-05-02 06:47:41 My posts now have a gloomier touch to them, I've noticed. But as much as I would love to make y'all happy and cheer you up, I also have to be honest about what I'm feeling, what I'm experiencing and all of that. So for the sake of documenting this, and with hope that someone reads this and feels less alone, here's the writing I promised you a year ago. My 'I'm no longer in quarantine!' essay.

After those very, very long and gray 11 months passed by, things started going back to normal. I had school back, I reconnected with all the friends I had been missing, I took early morning walks in the sunrise - pretty much everything I craved back then. I'm so grateful for that because if I was still stuck at home doing nothing but watching videos, I would've lost my mind. But at the same time I feel like a part of me is still living in those 11 months. It's still emotionally compromised and has changed irreversibly. I'd call it growth but it's more like change. I'm relieved but it doesn't feel as free as it should. Maybe it's growth, I dont know. Maybe loss does that to you. Or the isolation? I feel like I'm not the only one who feels different after last year, right? It's like something's missing.

Whatever could have done this, I still have to find a way back. I owe myself and everyone around me including you guys that beacon of hope. I still have a lot to do in this world before I let go of everything like that. I hope I don't disappoint.

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2021-05-02 06:33:57 Happy holiday everyone! And Ramadan Kareem too. Open / Comment

2021-04-22 01:30:04 Hey there sunflowers. On a related note to the above video, I wamted to say a little something. Ever since last year, I've been thinking about sharing my freshman experience for all the newbies. I planned to create a separate channel for it. But unfortunately I procrastinated and now I don't have time to start and run another channel. So an article longer than my usual writings should do. I'll post it whenever it's ready. I hope it helps atleast one person out there. Stay tuned! Open / Comment

2021-04-22 01:29:01

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2021-04-20 23:50:01 And for my non-Amharic reading audience, the Amharic phrase up there translates to 'How are you doing'? Open / Comment

2021-04-20 23:50:01 Most of my writings are things I reflect from my childhood memories. I hope you don't get tired of them.

I used to go to the hospital A LOT for my recurrent tonsillitis. Sometimes every two weeks. And everytime me and mom sat in the doctor's office, he/she would ask, 'እሺ ኤደን, እንዴት ነሽ?' And I would reply saying I'm fine. On multiple occasions they laughed at me for that because if I was okay, why was I there, right? But I never understood why they laughed because I thought that was the default answer. I thought that's what you were supposed to say, regardless of your circumstances. I still do because you don't spill out all your problems to the neighbor who casually asked you how you're doing. But what about when I question my well being? What about when I wonder if my mental health is anything close to good? Does the white lie apply here too? Or do I actually face the thing I keep running away from and admit that I need to prepare for the war ahead of me?

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2021-04-19 08:33:01 Hey everyone a quick reminder that I'm here for anyone who wants to talk about anything. I can't promise that I'll reply immediately but I will reply within a few hours. I'd also love to help any 12th graders in here with scheduling and stuff. @enchanty is where you can find me. Have a good day. Open / Comment

2021-04-19 07:23:42 I used to think that maybe everyone is following a universal rule I didn't know about which went like 'Pretend everything is okay even if it isn't.' I know it sounds childish and all but you can't blame me, I was a little kid who kept learning all about things like global warming, ozone depletion, environmental pollution, etc. They're all problems we had back then and they're still here, with their effects growing exponentially and claiming more lives as time goes. Maybe I was a bit of an environmentalist when I was young. But that's not what I'm going to talk about today. We follow that same pattern today. Each of us. At the back of our heads are piles and piles of things we need to deal with but we just keep delaying them and even more, denying the fact that they even exist. It's our mind's way of keeping us safe but too much of a good thing is bad too. I'm not saying it's your fault, and I'm not saying I don't live in denial. Trust me, I do. But if this gets to you somehow, shows up on your channel's list or anywhere at all, maybe you need to deal with something. Maybe you need to try and stop the cycle. I mean, don't we all?

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