The Sun & Her Flowers

2021-07-08 22:48:09 Meditate. It helps. Take my word for it. Open / Comment

2021-07-08 22:35:28 Someone I know once told me that if you're having problems with everyone around you, maybe you're the source. The cause. Whichever.

And I don't see any relationship with people around me that I haven't messed up somehow and it's sorta depressing. There's oceans of emotions and problems I've buried everywhere and now I'm starting to see them all one by one. Since a week ago I swore on fixing them and I'm making baby steps. I think.

I feel like I've failed all of you here. All of my realest friends, people I consider family, you're in this channel. And the one's I've never met too, I know you came here looking for the positivity and the ideas I had flowing and as disappointing as it is, I lost my way somewhere along the line. Will I find it? I honestly don't know. All I can do is hope and work on myself.

Would you believe it if I thought of deleting this channel a few times? That's how bad things have been getting but no, I would never. Pushing the things that remind me of me won't make anything better now, would it?

I know I keep talking about how lockdown (or quarantine, whatever) was for me and as much as it feels like an excuse, it really isn't. It is by far the worst year of my life and I tried to justify it with the so called lessons I learned from it but let's face it, I don't have that sunshine I once did. And that's okay. That's not the end of the world. But as much as it took, I refuse to stop writing cause of a series of not so good incidents. Dear life, I hope you're listening... I'm not letting this dream go. I'm not giving up another thing I love just because you demand it.

This isn't a goodbye at all, its a rant. Or another life update no one asked for. But well, my channel, my diary, my home. I write what I want here.

I still love you guys. Open / Comment

2021-05-22 10:30:05 2. Binge-eating disorder
( Trigger Warning, same as the ones in the previous post)

This disorder is on the other end of the spectrum. It is mainly characterized by eating excessively. This is further worsened when the person consumes foods considered unhealthy. In most cases, the person affected suffers from overweightness and obesity. Diabetes, heart diseases, liver diseases, hypertension are also possible outcomes. The person affected could be well aware of these, but still feels the need to eat more and more especially when stressed. At the same time, they could develop self-esteem issues as their ovesity is a result of an urge they can't control, not a choice. Emotional factors include depression, self-harm, insecuritues and low self-esteem, etc. This disorder is just as difficult as anorexia because (1) too much food is harmful to health and (2) the stress from being obese or overweight causes more urges to eat. I know it sounds controversial but a lot of people out there including myself find comfort in food, it's like the thunder inside eases up a bit. When this habit reaches extreme levels, it upgrades into serious disorders. Think about it.

*Symptoms- Eating more than usual, constantly eating when upset or stressed, excessive weight gain, depression, self-harm, feelings of worthlessness and self-blaming, body dysmporphia, etc.

@thesunandherflowerss Open / Comment

2021-05-22 09:30:13 •Eating Disorders
( Trigger Warning- Mention of eating disorders, suicide, depression, self-harm)

Let's start from extreme cases. Reminder-( this is not enough information to self-diagnose, you have to consult a professional. I am only trying to create awareness on the issue.

Eating disorders affect people of all races, color, ethnicity, age, and gender although they are more common in young people, especially females. This, though, doesn't mean that men aren't affected by them!

As I did some research, I found so many eating disorders and I had to select the ones most relevant to what I wish to talk about today.

1. Anorexia Nervosa (most commonly known as Anorexia)
-People who have anorexia have an irrational fear of gaining weight. You could call it an addiction to losing weight and consuming less calories. They feel as if they are excessively obese even though they could be slim or even underweight. Their minds are critics to the point where they look in the mirror and believe they are fat even if their bones are clearly visible. To deal with this self-image, they eat little to nothing and feel the constant need to weigh themselves. Weight loss could sound good for some but the fat in our bodies is there to serve a purpose of its own. Furthermore, the food we eat is used for everything in life like thinking, physical functions, blood circulation, and survival in general. Malnutrition or undernourishment can end up giving us VERY severe and irreversible diseases and even cause death. Anorexic people could be aware of these, but still starve themselves because of the very compelling urge to lose weight.

*Anorexia can be identified amongst people around us by symptoms like- severe weight loss, avoiding or lying about eating food, inducing vomiting, weakness and fatigue, lower mood or depression, low self-esteem, self harm, etc. It is not easy to isolate anorexia from these vague symptoms but if you see them on your friends, siblings, etc, you might need to have a talk about it. They are harming themselves and that could make you emotional but try to stay calm and work on it with them.

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2021-05-21 06:37:56 This channel is like my child. I feel obligated to it and everyone here and trust me I love it here but I can't always write for reasons I won't discussing now. Furthermore, I'm starting to see myself start to morph into that only-one-purpose med student and that ia the last thing I want to be. As much as I love doing what I do, I want to do more, you know. Have a voice. And what other way to channel it through than writing?
I have a few things to say on nutrition-related disorders and how they are caused. Stay tuned...turn your notifications on (or off, whichever suits you because I'll be posting every hour or two) and I hope you learn something. Ideas, comments, etc at @enchanty. Open / Comment

2021-05-17 11:25:47 When we think of people that made it, we assume that they were great from the start. As if they learned everything faster than everyone else, as if their achievements predicted their future. That could be true in some cases but there's absolutely no use to… Open / Comment

2021-05-06 06:00:03 Good mornings flowers

Picture stolen from @Restlessbraincells. Ain't it beautiful? Open / Comment

2021-05-05 14:57:44 I'm flooded with schoolwork these days but whenever I catch my breath, we'll have a little talk on eating disorders. Stay safe Open / Comment

2021-05-05 14:50:44 When we think of people that made it, we assume that they were great from the start. As if they learned everything faster than everyone else, as if their achievements predicted their future. That could be true in some cases but there's absolutely no use to… Open / Comment